Lyrics:

Interlude (written by Andy Monley)

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Val (written by John Grant)

Emptiness, emptiness how do I search for you
Empty everything and strip the walls
make them colorless, invisible
stop all thought, I am not losing now
I can't feel anything, I can't see you

Chorus:

Try and make me go away tonight, try and make yourself pretend
I wanted it, I needed it, for the longest time
try and make yourself pretend, you can't go on tonight
I wanted it, I needed it for the longest time

Chorus:

I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to hear your voice
I wanted it, I needed it, for the longest time
You don't even have to want, you don't even have to care
I wanted it, I needed it
for the longest time

Strange, how you've stopped loving me, how you've stopped needing me,
since she came along, oh how strange

Strange you changed like night and day
Just up and walked away
when she came along, oh how strange

Well, I guess that I was just your puppet, you held on a string
to think I thought you really loved me
but look what thoughts can bring

Strange, you're still in all my dreams
oh what a funny thing
I still care for you, oh, how strange

Song To The Siren (written by Tim Buckley)

Long afloat, on shipless oceans
I did all my best to smile
til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving to your aisle

and you sang
sail to me
sail to me, let me enfold you

here I am, here I am
waiting to hold you

did I dream, you dreamt about me
were you hare, when I was fox
now my foolish boat, is leaning
broken lovelorn on you rocks

for you sing, touch me not
touch me not, come back tomorrow
Oh my heart, oh my heart
shy's from the sorrow

I'm as puzzled as the newborn child
I'm as riddled as the tide
should I stand amid the breakers
or should I lie with death my bride
hear me sing
swim to me
swim to me
let me enfold you

here I am, here I am, waiting to hold you

Zippermouth (written by John Grant)

I demand, I demand that I be seen by you
for all my overtime, you want to make it home now, don't you?

I guess I am, the one that really needs to get through to you
because we're wasting time, you spend your life getting through

I thought it over, will you be the one
so I said to myself, I said to myself
are you willing to make the change

I thought it over, will you be the one
so I said to myself, I said to myself
I'm not willing to go there yet

I demand, I demand that I be seen by you
for all my overtime, you want to make it somewhere, don't you?

I had a dream last night
you were the one to make the change
so I said to myself, I said to myself
were you not, willing to lead me now along the path you've chosen
lying to yourself, saying to yourself, I'm not the one

What I Can Do For You (written by John Grant)

Are you angry, 'cause you're not doing what you want to do?
I understand that, 'cause that's the way that I am feeling too
Are you exhausted? Your mind is always working overtime
I can see it in your eyes baby, but everything is going to work out fine

I don't know what I can do for you, but I can make sure that you're not lonely too
and hold you for a while x2

I really sorry that I hurt you with things I've said to you
but when I'm down and being hard on myself, the words just come out wrong
I will defy my fears and keep on going, so I can be someone that's there for you
I don't want to keep myself from knowing, If I can make it on my own

I don't know what I can do for, but I can make sure that you're not lonely too
and hold you, for a while

I don't know what I can do for you, but if you give me a chance I think that I can prove I love you, if only for a while

Stay (lyrics by John Grant, music by Andy Monley)

Stay here, won't you
I know that you are the best
white force, you know
I cannot be around the rest

I'm gonna make it work this time
throw you out and be just fine
you know that you are the best
I don't care what you wanna do this time
throw yourself away this time
I cannot be around the best

won't you stay a while x4

stay here, won't you
I know that you are the best
white force, you know, I cannot be around the rest, for life

that's the way I like to see you offer
that's the way I like to see you offer

Pressure (written by John Grant)

I will not wait around to face my fortune
I will not wait around for something else
You are around my now, you can have anything
that you want

Calling all your resource for another time
that is fine
if I write a note and leave it anywhere
that is fine
you can have anything, you can have anything, that you want

If you've got leavin' on your mind, tell me now, get it over, hurt me now, get it over
if you've got leavin' on your mind
I there's a new love in your heart, tell me now, get it over, hurt me now, get it over
it there's a new love in your heart

Don't leave me here in a world, filled with dreams that might have been, hurt me now
get it over, I may learn to love again

if there's a new love in your heart, tell me now, get it over, hurt me now get it over, if there's a new love in your heart

if there's a new love...

I Fall To Pieces (written by Harlan Howard and Hank Cochran, 1961)

I fall to pieces
Each time I see you again
I fall to pieces
How can I be just your friend

You want me to act
Like we've never kissed
You want me to forget
Pretend we've never met
And I try and I try
But I haven't yet
You walk by and I fall to pieces

solo

I fall to pieces
Each time someone speaks your name
I fall to pieces
Time only adds to the pain

You tell me to find someone else to love
Someone who loves me too
The way you used to do
But each time I go out with someone new
You walk by and I fall to pieces

Concentrate (lyrics by John Grant, music by Andy Monley)

I need a lot of hope from you, but I forgot I went away instead
I hope I'm not disturbing you,
but I forgot I'm hurting you
I hope I'm not who you need

I hope you're not talkin' 'bout yesterday,
'cause I can't live, I can't live that way
it's all gone now
and you don't know the truth
so you must go now and find the door
I hope I'm not disturbing you

Dave's Dream (lyrics by John Grant, music by Dave Stringfield and Chris Pearson)

Didn't you go out in the morning
Didn't you go out in the evening
I was ready for anything

I don't mind, I won't find out anyway,
I'm too blind, to see you at all

Can I have what I feel that I must have
Multiply by ten, that's what I think I need
Overshadow your life
Do you like asphyxiation?

I don't mind, I won't find out anyway, I'm too blind
I don't mind, I won't find out anyway, I am too blind, to see you at all

Any Younger (lyrics by John Grant, music by Jeff Linsenmaier)

You seem to think you've got this business figured out inside your head
and all the while you see me, falling,
for your name.

You seem to think it's easier to steal and cheat instead of love
But you're not getting any younger, so start your life, it isn't over yet

And all you people, who try to understand
you know, they're not any younger, they start their lives
it isn't over yet.

And so I see you on the road to your own
but you're not getting any younger
you start your life
it isn't over yet

Gangrene (lyrics by John Grant, music by Chris Pearson)

You're professional, you are kind, you always say the right things
you show up on time, everyday, smiling doing what you do.

I'd like to get in your skin, to see what I could see from there.
But it isn't that way. Is it, darling?
We're not doing this for you.

The nail that sticks out, must be hammered down, hammered down
Oh, the nail that sticks out, must be hammered down, hammered down

I'd like to do the right thing darling, I'd like to show myself the way to your door
but it isn't that way and it never will be, wait til you see what we've in store for you

It's a bandaid for gangrene, a bandaid for gangrene

I wanted that, I needed that, I anticipated this, for the longest time
I want to be desired by that
I want it to infatuate me
I want to see if I can overcome, without saying that

If this is what you want, then get used to destruction
If this is what you need, then get used to depression
'cause there's nobody here gonna sit around, and listen to your opinion
If this is what you want, then get used to being alone

When you were a child you laughed and cried, and then somebody filled you full of pride, and we were all there the day your personality died, and we all still feel the loss
but feelings are a little bit steep for you, you've got a lot of things that you must do, like tapping the sap from the apple trees for your own self pity stew

If this is what you want, then get used to rejection
If this is what you need, then get used to suppression
Cause there's nobody here gonna sit around, and listen to your opinion,
If this is what you want, then get used to being alone

For Emily, Wherever I May Find Her (written by Paul Simon, 1966)

What a dream last night
dressed in orgundy
clothed in crinaline
of smoky burgundy
softer than the rain

I wandered empty streets down
past the shop displays
I heard cathedral bells
drifting down the alleyways, as I walked on

and when you ran to me your,
cheeks flushed with the night
we walked through frozen fields
of juniper and lamplight
I held your hand

And when I awoke
and saw you warm and near
I kissed your honey hair
with my grateful tears
oh I love you girl, I love you

You Don't Know What Love Is (written by Don Raye and Gene DePaul, 1941)

You don't know what love is
Until you've learned the meaning of the Blues
Until you've loved a love you had to lose
You don't know what love is

You don't know how lips hurt
Until you've kissed and had to pay the cost
Until you've flipped your heart and you have lost
You don't know what love is

Drug (written by John Grant)

You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you've told to me
While looking me directly in my eyes

This is not ecstasy, but it's better than cocaine.
and you know that I will miss you when you're gone
but I'm not equipped to play this game

You know your words
They don't mean anything to me
They only serve to fatten up the prey
And when it's time to take them to the slaughterhouse
you slice their throats, continue on your way

This is not jeopardy
and it's not your high school prom
and you know that I will miss you when you're gone
But I'm not equipped to be your mom

You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you've told to me
while looking me directly in my eyes

My Funny Valentine (written by Glen Rose Rogers and Lorenz Hart, 1937)

My funny valentine
Sweet comic valentine
You make me smile with my heart
Your looks are laughable
Unphotographable
Yet you’re my favorite work of art

Is your figure less than greek
Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart?

But don’t change a hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentine’s day

Is your figure less than greek
Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart?

But don’t you change one hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentine’s day

Top Breed (hidden track) (written by John Grant)

You're waiting everyday
weaseling and watching
you're closer now than you think
your skin is sticky, super slick
you'll touch everything, you'll take anything
you will see.

So fuck you
you understand
you're proud and stupid, you understand me
so fuck you
you understand
you're proud and stupid
you understand me

Your smile, it stinks and rots and fouls
I'm waiting, slippery, eely bitch
it won't be long 'fore my turn
the words they're chosen carefully
like you can choose, you're anything
like the acid in that movie with the alien

it must fun and really appetizing
it must be something from somewhere else
you cannot believe, you really oughta see this guy
your clown sucks, it really sucks
you puke and puke and puke and puke
can we get somebody in to drag this body out

so fuck you
baby fuck you
you're really close
so fuck you
so fuck you
baby fuck you
your really close
you understand me

One Single Thing (written by John Grant)

I saw the branches of the trees upon a street like this
a patch of grass where mushrooms grew ... then I thought again

This is how it's gonna be and I will have to change
this is what you think you mean, you better think again

All I ever wanted was to know one single thing
instead I kept on listening to a bunch of idiotic kings

at least that's what they thought
at least that's what they thought

People always bitchin' about dignity respect
what they mean it's clear to me is fear, money and sex
being right and being strong, there is no other way
unless you're weak, unless your wrong, then you'll have to pay

All I ever wanted was to know one single thing
instead I kept on listening to a bunch of idiotic kings

at least that's what they thought
at least that's what they thought

All I ever wanted was to know one single thing
instead I kept listening to a bunch of idiotic kings

at least that's what they thought
at least that's what they thought

Second Runner Up (lyrics by John Grant, music by Andy Monley)

Don't go faster, you must slow down
Something's got to change around here
You keep asking I don't know
You keep threatening so just go
Get out of here

Don't be sorry, don't be a fool
you know what that gets you around here
no excuses, no regrets, will he make it?
place your bets
wait around for the show
you mastered the art of second best
the art of no second chance

Disaster, a concept in your mind
a way to not have to fight
one morning, one morning, one morning we will see

You master, you master the art of second best
the art of no second chance
disaster, disaster, a concept in your mind
a way to not have to fight

X Would Rather Listen To Y (lyrics by John Grant, music by Roger Green)

I sat and watched the sun go down
I thought about the things that I have said and done
you won't be seeing me around
I won't be running in this shitty little town

run as fast as you can, find another man
he's not here, he is gone, got the address wrong

What kind of formula did you employ?
is it the kind that turns a person to a toy?
you will not get that far with me
my mind consumes you, you throw the rest into the sea

run as fast as you can, find another man,
he's not here, he is gone, got the address wrong

Accident (written by Andy Monley)

Tenderness, you know you never have any
understanding, you know you have even less
as for dignity, you never seem to have any use for that (neither did I)
everybody knows you can lie with the best

won't you get your sickness out of my head
work your magic in somebody else's head

Anger (written by John Grant)

don't say that, make them understand
don't try that, it just makes everything seem so useless
honestly, no one seems to hurt you like you do
tell me please, how does anyone take so much abuse?

look at me, look straight into my eyes
if I'm acting up, I promise you won't expect a reply
honestly, no one seems to hurt you, like you do
tell me please, how does anyone take so much abuse?




This (written by Andy Monley)

This blessing in disguise, somebody to despise
Let's you know how much, you really know of love
It's such a loaded word, corrupted and absurd
Twisted out of tune.

Lost, I'm beginning to know the cost of trying to read your thoughts
but now I know your thoughts.

You are worried about you, I wonder how you make it through
Nagging day to day, feeling this way.
And the way you look at life as tedium and strife
but let me tell you this...

Bliss, I really wondered about your kiss, the flavor of your lips
Before this can occur, strikes a nerve

The pleasure and the pain, what's the difference, what's the difference?
One and all the same, what's the difference, what's the difference?
The pleasure and the pain, what's the difference, what's the difference?
One and all the same, what's the difference, what's the difference?
The pleasure and the pain, what's the difference, what's the difference?
One and all the same, what's the difference?

You, are worried about you.

Lost, the ungainly albatross that you carry like a cross
for those you shed a tear, they are gone and cannot hear.

What Used to be a Human (music by The Czars, Lyrics by John Grant)

I'm the remains of what used to be a human
The transformation perfectly formed by something else
The skin, the bones, the insides falling down around you
The creature that you seem to be is a copy of something else
 
Baby did you try to speak, did you try to understand me?
No I'm not mad at you, just thought you were with someone else
I asked a question once but I didn’t hear the answer
Did you even realize what you put back on the shelf?
 
So many died
To save your life
 
I'm the remains of what used to be a human
The transformation perfectly formed by something else
The skin, the bones, the insides falling down around you
The creature that you seem to be is a copy of something else
 
So many died
To save your life
 
Baby I just didn't know who you were at all
Baby I just didn't see what you had to offer
Baby I just wanna know where we are tonight
Baby I just wanna see you ask me on a date
Do you know the heart?
Do you that it can be destroyed?
You can make it go away
You can make it shrivel up and die
 
Take a look at me
Give me everything you've got
If it's not enough
Make me everything you're not
 
It's just a side effect of loving you
A nasty soundtrack to the city
He says the effects will recover soon
The situation is dire
You know that he's a liar

Bright Black Eyes (music by The Czars, Lyrics by John Grant)

I thought that I knew where my heart it had landed
I thought that I’d worked it all out
I thought you’d be willing to hold me at night and
I thought that that’s what I would want
But I was a blind man in love with a demon and
I couldn’t figure it out

Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have started to strip all the sense from my mind

This desert it seems to have no plans of ending
So I have to make it my home
You gave me a chance now I know I can’t take it
I’d rather just be here alone

Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have started to strip all the sense from my mind
I have let you play me and take me to places that I thought that I couldn’t find

Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have started to strip all the sense from my mind

Don’t talk to me about love
This has nothing to do with that word
This is just good old fashioned exploitation
You’re not serious

So just like a dog that returns to his vomit
I guess that I do it because
I get no more pleasure from self-deprecation
It’s not as much fun as it was

Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have started to strip all the sense from my mind

Your bright black eyes have started to quench all the light in my soul
Your bright black eyes have started to strip all the sense from my mind

My Love (music by The Czars, lyrics by John Grant)

If you are lucky, lucky enough today
To have someone
To whom you feel you have something to say
Don’t think it over, don’t let them slip away

He read to her from his poetry
But that could never be enough to really make her see
So he climbed up high into a tree
And made the choice to turn into a leaf

If you are lucky, lucky enough today
To have found a love
To whom you feel you have something to say
Don’t think it over, it’s gonna be ok.

He read to her from his poetry
But that could never be enough to really make her see
So he climbed up high into a tree
And made the choice to turn into a leaf

Goodbye (music and lyrics by John Grant)

I'm waiting over here
Just to see you
my love
for the last time

Goodbye goodbye goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking, screaming as you try to reach the sky

Goodbye goodbye goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking, screaming as you try to reach the sky and die

I'm begging you tonight
I want to free you
My love
Just one last time for you

Maybe we could change
We always seem to fall again
We are still alive
You have to give up everything and die
And all I want is you
And all I want is you

So it's over now
And I have loved you
With my life
But this is the last time for you

Goodbye goodbye goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking, screaming as you try to reach the sky

Goodbye goodbye goodbye
I love to see you fade and die
I love to see you kicking, screaming as you try to reach the sky and die

The Hymn (music by the Czars, lyrics by John Grant)

People say to me you cannot change
People say you always stay the same
If that were true I would leave this place
I would vanish from this place without a trace
I would leave you alone
Go build yourself a throne

You have said to me you cannot change
Coming from you that sounds very strange
Because you have changed in so many ways
That I have trouble recognizing you from day to day
And trouble is your thing
It takes away the sting

Someday these concerns may be your own
When you’re lost and far away from home
But you won’t have it any other way
Now you’ll have to pay
Clever tricks so sly
But you cannot cry

I am the Man (music by The Czars, lyrics by John Grant)

You are beyond any reproach now
You are so cool you’re so flawless now
Perfect approach impeccable execution
When you are done can you show me how

I’m not just a man
I am the man you can’t have
I need something else
You are the one who can’t help

You’ve gotten sick on self-satisfaction
And now my patience is wearing thin
You seem surprised, how could this happen
You knew what I was when you took me in

I’m not just a man
I am the man you can’t have
I need something else
And you are the one who can’t help

I Saw a Ship (music and lyrics by John Grant)

I saw a ship on the horizon
I hadn’t seen before
I wanted to cry tears of joy
But I don’t have them anymore

I’ve wasted them on trifles,
Things that just don’t mean a thing
And when I come back home to you
My love is what I’ll bring

I saw a ship on the horizon
I hadn’t seen before
I found those tears I lost
‘Cause you don’t love me anymore
You left me so that you could go and
Have an easy life
One filled with zero trouble and one
Filled with zero strife



L.O.S. (music by The Czars, lyrics by John Grant)

You keep on pushing and you’ll get your answer,
But it won’t be the one you want it to be
I think it’s funny how we don’t get storms around here
Anymore, and the rain, when it comes
It tastes like nothing

I want you to remember me
For things I never did
‘Cause none in this world deserves
To see my happiness

I know what it’s supposed to be like
To be young
But it is not the way I thought it would be
My paranoia functioned like a broken mirror
To distort and destroy any clarity, and what’s more

I want you to give back to me
The child I never was
‘Cause believed what I was told
Like everybody does

Pain (music and lyrics by John Grant)

Pain, it takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can’t feel
At all
Pain, it takes so much pain
To help you feel, if you can’t feel
At all
And if you think you need more pain
You can get all that you need
You can get it all for free
Just keep doing what you are

Did somebody tell you that they
Loved you then they said they never
Loved you? How did you feel? How did
You feel?
It doesn’t really matter how you felt ‘cause
You can’t make them love you, that is for sure
That is for real.

Pain…

Do you really think that it won’t kill you ‘cause
I know that it will kill you,
Maybe not now, but you’ll find out how
Don’t tell me that you want to end up just like
Ever other sucker, that would be bad, that would
Be sad.

Now baby please don’t misunderstand me
‘Cause I don’t really give a damn
I saw you had a problem and I wanted to help
‘Cause that’s just how I am
It really doesn’t matter that much to me

Pain…

Paint The Moon (music and lyrics by John Grant)

I had a dream last night
A nightmare to be exact
We couldn’t take the heat
And the sweat dripped from our backs
I didn’t go I waited for the
Midnight sun
I didn’t want to leave you
‘Cause I don’t have anyone

Don’t paint the sun anymore
Paint the moon, and the stars
In an autumn sky
Paint me cool blue waters, with
Shades of gray, just don’t let me
Live my life this way
Without you

Let it go, let it go
Let it fall down from the sky
And leave this world behind

I saw you suffering, so I knelt
Down by your side, I saw that you
Were fading, that you were leaving
Your own mind
I gave you water just to soothe your
Failing heart and take away the fear
Of what we both know we will find

Don’t paint the sun anymore
Paint the moon, and the stars
In an autumn sky
Paint me cool blue waters, with
Shades of gray, just don’t let me
Live my life this way
Without you

Pink House (music by The Czars, lyrics by John Grant)

Lilacs and tiger-lilies won’t be enough for me when you’re gone
Hollyhocks, gladiolas, will never replace this face

In your little pink house with the blue polka-dots
I learned what I was and what I was not,
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be

Bleeding heart, lily-of-the-valley
Snapdragon, rambling rose
You’ll never make it in this world
If you’re not one of those

In your little pink house, with the blue polka-dots
I learned what I was and what I was not
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be

Diadem, orange sensation
Diorama, bell canto,
Baby-Lune, and princess too,
But you were the one I chose

In your little pink house, with the blue polka-dots
I learned what I was and what I was not
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be
Supposed to be

Trash (music by The Czars, lyrics by John Grant)

Mesmerizing, hypnotizing, resolve made of steel
You’ve got all the good cards baby
Don’t say no and don’t say maybe
What you fighting for, what is it you fight for?

It’s ok to not have answers, they don’t have them anyway
Save that bullshit for the bedroom, that’s where all your best
Work gets done,
You’re all by your self, you’re your only lover.

What do you think you’ll do to me, that you have not already done?
Why don’t you try sticking your dick into to all the things that you bought
With your hard earned cash, you don’t know what trash is.